“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
— Rainer Maria Rilke
Let's Talk About Finishing

Let's Talk About Finishing

I became a writer a little over five years ago.  

Well, of course I was a writer before that. I wrote songs, blogs, stories, copy. But it wasn't until the book started forcing me to write it that I had to admit that, truly, WRITER was a vocation that was in my bones. 

It started because, as cliche as it sounds, I couldn't not write it. I woke up one morning after a crisis of the soul in the form of Cancer Scare # ... oh, I've lost count, but it included real cancer and surgery, I thought this time was on my liver, and I was begging the " marshmallow man in the sky" (that's what we call God in our family) to please let me live, at the very least so my child doesn't have to grow up without a mother. 

In other words, I was desperate. 

I fell asleep with the knowing that I needed to write (something my guides had been telling me for years) and I woke up with stories about my band in my head that were forming fully written and would not stop until I started to write them down. Pouring coffee, in the shower, getting dressed—the stories would come. I felt a little crazy, but I listened because it wasn't like I could get anything else done. In short order, I'd written 10,000 words. 

And five years later, here I am sitting on a draft that's been in its current state—100,000+ very messy words—for almost two years. I have a publisher, for fuck's sake. What am I waiting for?

 It's time to finish.  

Because I know how much of a struggle it can be to finish a project this big, I'm going to do it in public—sort of. I'm going to share how I get inspired to finish and what blocks me, and how I work through that.  

I've already got a small challenge in the form of a broken foot ... but that's not a big thing.  

If I can, I'll start by creating excitement around the project, but if that doesn't work I'll just start by promising you I'll work on it for twenty minutes today.

Surely I can find 20 minutes for my book?

I Can't Even Open the Word Doc (On Finishing ... or Starting to Finish)

I Can't Even Open the Word Doc (On Finishing ... or Starting to Finish)

Why you want to create

Why you want to create